Self-esteem collapse “Not being able to walk” with calf cramp
Report and analysis according to the system of the 5 Biological Laws of Nature (5BL, New Medicine, GNM, German New Medicine).
2023/06/04
| Diagnoses |  Report by: Esther S. |
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| The report is about | Me | |||||
| Gender | Female | |||||
| Age | 56 years (at the time of the symptoms / disease) | |||||
| Handedness | Right | |||||
| Additional methods | ||||||
| Categories | Observation of several similar SBS runs, e.g. multiple identical PCL phases (thereby validation of the cause) Small to medium (sore throat, lumbago, sudden hearing loss, allergies, ...) |
Description
200 steps are sometimes more than 2000 steps
For years, I walked through woods and meadows every day just because I wanted to keep my ability to walk. 200, 1000, 2000 or more steps. I have to say that I have had movement paralysis with self-esteem collapses in my legs since Nov. '07, among other things.
This daily exercise was always more of a drag through the forest and a final thought: “Well, at least I've done my quota today.”
Then came this C-mania and I preferred to lay lazily on the couch. Which didn't really help with fitness.
Then recently (May '23) this one day arrived when I decided to start running again.
I sat on the park bench, stood up, determined to take at least 100 steps. And I did it. And another 100 back. WOW. I was so proud of myself and full of joy I sat back down on the bench. Grinning broadly. An absolutely intense feeling.
Then at night, for the very first time since the motor paralysis began (Nov. '07), I had a tonic epileptic crisis in my calf muscles that lasted about 10 seconds. On both sides. Ouch, those cramps hurt. But it was a healing epi-crisis
. So I rolled over again afterwards and went straight back to sleep.But now I wanted to know if it was a one-off. So a few days later I went to the bank again. Today it was to be more than 100 steps. It turned out to be 200 in one direction and back again. Only the last 10 steps were less “perfect” because my left leg didn't want to do it anymore and so I judged myself a little. Nevertheless, after 400 steps I was happily back at my bench. But something was different. I wasn't quite so proud and happy. My left leg was a bit restricted.
I woke up at seven in the morning. Then came the epi-crisis. Tonic-clonic and longer than the night before, but only in the right calf. When this was finished, a tonic cramp in the left calf came much more quickly.
What is the conclusion of this?
Basically, I know that the intense feeling of a weight falling from your heart helps you to find a solution. The fact that an intense and genuine feeling of joy also has this effect was new to me before then. But now I was able to experience it for myself. I was extremely happy about my success and experienced a small solution to the local recurrence of “not being able to walk”. I had an epi crisis. On my second attempt at the 400 steps, I judged my left leg. So there was no 100% conviction with “being able to walk” on this leg. As a result, my left calf cramped for less time at night than my right.
I never thought that this realization would overtake me like this. But in future I will pay very close attention to my feelings and emotions. They have such a big role to play in SBS and very little attention is paid to them.
Finishing 200 steps with joy has a completely different effect than finishing 2000 steps with doubt or judgment.
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