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When my daughter was in elementary school, about 2nd grade, I was away from home for a week and received the text message from my husband that she was very bad, 40 fevers, massive headaches. He felt reminded of his meningitis and said, maybe she had something like that now?? I was shocked and immediately demanded to talk to her and him on the phone.

My daughter was really miserable and I said that I would go home immediately. There were 350km between us and some things had to be arranged so that I could go. During this time, I was very worried and my conflict was: did you really do everything right? Your child is not vaccinated. Maybe something bad is happening now and you are to blame?! I felt shaken to my foundations and was massively conflict-active. About 6 hours after the first message, I arrived home and went to bed with my child to take care of him. The little one enjoyed visibly in the next 3 days. Immediately after her pcl, the pcl started for me and I got massive back pain in the lumbar spine. Since I knew that this was a resolved self-esteem conflict: you did everything right - you were immediately with the child and it is now fine! - I could bear the pain so tolerably. I don't know exact periods, but for 3 or 4 days I had massive pain and then it became less and passed completely.

Report translated by: Monique Hetfeld